Good evening, ladies and gentlemen,” David Letterman said upon taking the stage at Manhattan’s Ed Sullivan Theater on Oct. 1 admission that he had been sexually involved with female staffers on his show.

” The line scored a laugh—but at an earlier taping that day, the room had fallen silent as the host delivered a candid apology that followed his stunning Oct.

“It wasn’t a big deal, because he wasn’t married,” says the staffer.

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“I’m terribly sorry,” he said, adding that his wife, Regina Lasko, “has been horribly hurt by my behavior, and when something happens like that … So let me tell you folks: I got my work cut out for me.” The mea culpa capped an intensely tumultuous, painfully public few days for a man who has fiercely guarded his privacy for years. [Halderman] was always a solid character,” says former CBS anchor Dan Rather, who worked with him on the CBS newsmagazine 48 Hours.

But even as Letterman, 62, resumed his usual routine, the scandal surrounding his confession and the arrest of longtime CBS News producer Robert “Joe” Halderman—he is accused of trying to extort $2 million in exchange for keeping quiet about Letterman’s sexual dalliances—has baffled the closest friends and colleagues of both men. 2 Halderman pleaded not guilty to attempted grand larceny; a court date has been set for Nov. As for Letterman, says Rather, “David is a stand-up guy.” Now the two are caught in a web of intrigue that centers on Letterman’s former assistant—and Halderman’s ex-girlfriend—Stephanie Birkitt, 34.

“It was a daily occurrence that people would think they knew him personally and write him to say, ‘Why don’t you call me back?

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